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I am often asked by friends and some other people how is it working on ships. I usually reply answer that question with “just fine” or “good” Like any other things in this world, it always have two sides – good & bad. Positively speaking, my job is great. I’m able to travel for free – seeing those beautiful places which I once imagine as a kid. That is a totally wicked good thing isn’t it? Working with people from different countries is another thing as you learn things from them – that is diversity.You became friends to people much easier than you would have in land. It is very close knit because you are always together, laughing at such silly things, comforting each other when not-so-good situations arise. Also I should say that the uniform is pretty much good. Four different uniforms to wear on different occasions! I must say it is kinda hard to pack this uniforms when I’m about to finish my contract as it occupies most of my luggage space.

There is always a fall back. Working at sea is not always about fun and good laughs. It is a constant struggle. Survival of the fittest to some, challenge to others. Everyday is a new day you have to face. I deal with peoples concern every single day. I could have heard all the silliest questions ever existing. I had been accused and blamed (so many times) of things I didn’t even have a clue what is it about. I just go on and deal with it the best way I can. This job is more of PR. You have to remain calm and unfazed of all things that comes your way. You cannot please everybody but you can try. Sometimes you will win hearts and gain trust, sometimes all you get is freaky comments from some freaks that have completely lost the plot! One more factor that makes life at sea more difficult is that you are away from your family. You are missing special moments in your life which you could have shared with your family and friends. On my part I have spent a few occasions that should be happy moments if I am home but since I chose to be at sea, those moments are shared with friend and work colleagues so we all try to cheer up and enjoy.

So here I am now at 12 mid day in front of this box, doing nothing. Actually I just came out of my room. Nothing much to do there anyway at this point. I’m working Nights for the last three months. It’s killing me now to be honess. Thank God in a couple of weeks I will be back to days. This contract is pretty much different from my other two. This is more challenging. Challenging in the sense that I have to search for people gone missing at night and God knows where I can find them. It’s kinda hard but I love it. Asst Night Manager brought me many many many things. For one the idea of being "in-charge" is a bit overwhelming. Secondly, I save some more couple of greens by not spending (which I am notorious to) Third, I got all the time to see those amazing places Pacific area has to offer. All in all it was fun and I will not hesitate to do it again but please not on P&O Cruises were poeple are drunk at any point of the day. Soon enough, I will not have much time to chill out with my sounds in the morning, eat my "dinner" at 3am in the morning, sort those mountain high passenger chits. Ahhh! I would love to go back at days and meet this amazing Aussies and of course, the drinks that I deprived myself the past few months.

Just to let you all know guys, I’m going home so soon. Just a few more days and I’ll be there. Being away for about 8 months was long form me. In life, you have to set priorities and I chose the life that I have right now. I’m earning the fruits of my hardships.

Masaya to… Sabi nila, masarp daw umuwi kapag first contract mo. Feeling ko oo. at this point, I’m experiencing sleepless nights, excited na talaga ako umuwi.

I will be home soon!

Cannot touch
Cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love
Cannot kiss
Cannot have each other

Must be strong, and we must let go
Can not say what our hearts must know

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms
How does one waltz away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone

Cannot dream
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel
How we feel
Must pretend it’s over

Must be brave, and we must go on
Must not say, what we’ve known all along

Hook

Must be brave, and we must be strong
Cannot say, what we’ve known all along

23 April 2005

Everybody seems to be so excited on the coming graduation rites on thursday. Yeah im quite excited as well pero there is this feeling of sadness in me. askin’ why? ewan ko. I myself cant explain it. maybe because i have learned to love the institution and the instructors who molded me to be what i am today.

in just afew days, magiging iba na yung buhay ng mga graduates. some will land on the job they wanted pero meron din na maghahantay pa ng konting panahon to get thier luck. I maybe lucky na hindi pa man ako nag-graduate, im already working. I consider that as ablessing from the Almighty father. sa hirap ba naman ng pinagdaanan ko just to finish my schooling, i now know and determined na gagawin ko lahat to succeed! I know everbody wish the same.

i would like to thank all of you for walking by in my life. College memories will never be forgotten.